Me-Myself-N-i

Lifehouse - Br0keN

The Broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm  holdin on)(I'm holdin on)
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
Is there healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin on)(I'm holdin on)
(I'm still holdin on) (I'm holdin on)
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay
The broken light on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
There is healing
In your name (In your name)
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin')(I'm holdin' on)(I'm still holdin') (I'm holdin' on) (I'm still holdin')
Barely holding on to you (I'm still holdin on)
Barely holding on to you

My life as an intern~

I’m an intern and I feel more like an intern now. Its been nearly five months (21 weeks..I guess), I should just ask my rummie or Syai, as they counted the weeks and days of the internship duration which I called it awesome. They keep track of it and I don’t. I just know that I won’t be an intern anymore after 11 July 08. I get to be a student again for 1 more year and I miss UTP. Like a lot~!.

 

And now, I’m not sure to be involved in technical stuff or processes in the future. I’m confused. I like what I’m doing now, technical stuff although u need to crack ur brain when there’s problem or issues relating to hardware stuff. My team is currently supporting Vista and sometimes we got worldwide users  reports this and that, and we need to attend to it and solve it. Its just that I wanna learn something else also, something less technical (erkss..oke..now I’m being greedy..maybe not~!!).. Lets just say I’m helping the h/w engineer to do their jobs and most of the h/w stuff (monitors, KVM switch, notebooks, thumb drive, etc) are likely borrowed to us or ours for awhile..hahah..n I like the fact that I n Mamu can use it stuff in the h/w room to do our jobs or the “other” jobs..hohoh..(Halim sure x suker dgr part nehh..XP~). That’s why I love being an intern here..ngehehe..N the nicest part is that there’s gonna be someone to help u if u’re stuck and I would say I do learn a lot of h/w related stuff from my cool and dedicated mentor..ehee~..kene srh dier blanjer nehh as we worked so hard for him..XP~..He promise us a mkn2 and Kak Shima has already booked our time to treat us (mkn2 lagik) for helping her with her testing..ahah~ 

 

The funny thing for being an intern is that we have the opportunity to observe people (my boss is a very busy and damn hardworking man I’ll have to say...*wink2*)..being a part of a team (pg meeting blur jerkkk..hadei..T_T)...which is very3 nice. And I get to eat with the other interns also and Syai and Syaza sometimes. Me and Mamu are more involved in the engineering process right now (Mr. Rosli said that our tasks is an ongoing thing) which needs us to go through certain processes and tests. We sometimes help to test the scripted driver that we send for scripting earlier and edit the test plan. But there’s more to learn actually (loads and tons of them..XD~). Weekend is definitely the days that I’m looking forward too as I can relax, hangout and date with my fwens, go shopping, spend quality times with my family, do silly stuff, pampered myself, etc. So much to do, so little tyme..haih~

 

I can’t wait for May to come..Cptlaa May~~..hohoh..The best thing about the month of May is that I get to celebrate my spoiled youngest sis birthday and go travel and May ader cuti..hahah~..It’s M.A.Y~~..yeahh..Me and a few fwens get to visit makcik Shera in Singapore ..Yeay..too bad we will come a bit earlier..S’pore sales starts on 23^rd of May..haih2 again. Still, I’m not forgetting my objective is to meet/see makcik Shera and have fun there..ehee~..Can’t wait. I get to go travel with my family also which I was looking forward the most as my dad is always busy. Sometimes I get to eat dinner with him over the weekend which is great. He’s definitely a damn workaholic man and I wish I had it in me too which sadly and clearly, I don’t.

Speaking about May, my weekends are full with activities already..ehee~..Which is great. Me and liny get to be involved a.k.a helping around in CBJ Idol (thanks to Era..Charlz n liny’s mentor) and I’m joining the InterD also which I need to practice as I’m not that good in sports..uhuks~..And, I get to go to the annual dinner..*big grin..*..Still, I miss my student life. I really2 miss those “student have to be” moment. Not that I “love” tests, assignments, projects and final exams but I like being a student. Less worries, more play time, I get to run certain events..oke..I’m definitely not a good student here but I still like being a student. Its sad when we could not have what we want the most but, we suffered the most when we are unsure or do not know exactly what we want right?..I don’t have the answer for it.

 

Yerpp..it’s still April..I know..I’m waiting for MAY to come..*signing off in April..****

 

Sorry...

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren’t the same
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry

This time I think I’m to blame
It’s harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It’s never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry

I’m sorry baby.
I’m sorry baby, Yeah.
I’m sorry

2008??

Phew! Waking up, another year has gone. It seems that time flies very fast. Gagaga.. I’ve been very busy lately. Works are piling up and phew!.. (yaa..phew! is the word), I manage to find time to update my blog, think of some new resolutions and things that I would like to accomplish for 2008. And my award winning resolutions are:-

 

1. Shop less, save more!

2. Meet new friends (my lovable old friends are still in the radar...=p~)

3. Exercise more! (hehe..adan and ejan sure won’t believe this cos I rarely go to the gym and sweat on the treadmill in the house..No worries, I have the whole sweet year to do it..lalalala~)

4. Be a little less of myself. Be nicer to my friends (although I’m nice but I wanted to be nicer..ahaha..puji diri sendri detected!) and travel more!..*wink2*..

5. Lead on healthier lifestyle and be a good hardware engineer.

 

2007 has ended but I’ll definitely cherish every moment of it. It has been an event-filled year (the good and bad ones) with ups and downs. So, bye-bye 2007... :(.. I’m definitely moving on right now. So, I would like apologize for things that I directly or indirectly did, for being somewhat selfish sometimes, for being ignorant sometimes and also for something I said or never did in the past. Sorry. I’m just being myself. I guess I rather be hate for what I am rather than be loved for what I’m not. Haih2...It’s gonna be hard for me to commit on something else. I really dun wanna any commitment besides work right now. It’s quite troublesome for me to even think about it. I love the way I am right now. I’m definitely in my comfort zone for the time being. And because of this selfish act I lost someone years ago. Gomen...Haih2...

 

It’s been a hectic month for me since my internship starts. Well, it’s a good thing though. I get to learn something that I’ve never even cross before and I take that as a challenge for myself. There are still a lot of things that I need to learn. It’s definitely new to me. Regret on simply why I just don’t bother to learn about OS and hardware in the past. Hurm..my boss said that the team treat us (the interns) as their permanent staff since there are quite short-handed in people right now. Then, I guess I’m gonna be a little tight-handed for awhile. I love my job. Ehehe.. Last but not least, I hope that this year (2008) will be very meaningful to me, my friends and my family. Good luck~

 

Happy New Year to all...=p~~

W.e.l.c.o.m.e 2.0.0.8~~

Internship??

Hurm..not sure how to start. It’s been almost 3 weeks of my internship training period. Ehehe.. My internship period is 32 weeks..(The numbers are big but I think it will finish real soon..8 months is not dat long *positively thinking*)…So far..so good. Still can cope although at first it’s a little blurry I’ll have to say. My boss said that that’s only da beginning, there’s more to come..Ngaa (In a good way..*wink*).. Have been learning a lot of jargons n “alien words” n work stuff lately. Now, it’s definitely different from the study environment back in UTP. I miss some of the lecture series also (I know nobody will believe this, I skip a lot of classes in da past..huhuh~). No more lectures...seeing lecturers..fwens..UTP café..Ipoh..Lumut in 8 months~!! (Just for the melancholic part...Ignore2)...

 

Since it’s quite technical, my learning curve is not dat fast. Still I hope to shorten da learning gap cos the current interns in my team will go back to UTP n work. I love da working environment though. It encourages knowledge transfer n sharing n definitely not stressful~~..The people there is very nice and friendly.. My hardware eng team consists of Mr. Rosli (my SV), Romainor, Cheah, Deno, Mamu, Halim n Haref.. I’ve been learning a lot from them..ehehe..I’m quite lucky cos there’s Charlz,.Alvin n Jalal also in Wisma 4..(The new interns..=p~~).. There are a few more in Wisma 1..+ syaima n syaza in Cyber..as well..Definitely nice, at least I do have fwens there..=p~ ~

So far, my task consists of re-imaging machines, test machines/devices, driver injection, etc…Got a few tasks that I blur on doing it though. Mainly; it’s about the drivers and its engineering process. Looking at the engineering project plan, I’m gonna be really tight up cos there’s new drivers coming in n stuff.. (Sorry 4 da mix up words..Not in da state to check if they are grammatically correct..)..Currently, I’m under the engineering team. Therefore, the task was mainly building and testing. Charlz team will deploy it..ehehe..

 

Next is the weekly report. The report was trivial but yet troublesome for me…(hehe..cos I’m a lazy bone..duhh)..  I like the technical part, but very lazy to document it. Nevertheless, I still have to do it. (Isk2..Forcing myself to do it every week..chaiyok~).. I wonder how are my other fwens are doing. Some of them are doing great..I guess..I hope everyone is enjoying their work..Nice2..Now, only can hang out during weekends.. Still nice..cos most of my batch are doing their internship around KL and Selangor area. Plus, interestingly, since its getting near to the end of da year, sales are everywhere. Its damn nice..yeay..Time for shopping spree~~.. Its been awhile since I started to write again..haih2..

 

Not to forget,

 

Selamat Hari Raya Haji + Merry Xmas my fwens....

I love public holidays..relax tyme..ahaha..LOL~

Looks like somebody forgot his promise..huhuh~

"I'd Lie"

I don’t think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He’ll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I’m laughing cause I hope he's wrong
I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs
And..

[chorus:]
I could tell you his favorite color's green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father’s eyes
And if you asked me if I love him,
I’d lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn’t a light go on?
Doesn’t he know that I’ve had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don’t let nobody see me wishing he was mine

[chorus]

He stands there then walks away
My god if I could only say
I’m holding every breath for you...

He’d never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he’s beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle

Yes I could tell you his favorite color's green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father’s eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you asked me if I love him
I’d lie

by Taylor Swift..

Bubbly~

I've been awake for a while now
You make me feel like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

It starts in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it stats in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

Okaasan~

Okaasan kept a garden,

A garden of heart,

She planted all the good things,

Dat gave my life its start.

 

She turned me to the sunshine

And encouraged me to dream,

Fostering and nurturing,

The seeds of self-esteem.

 

And when the winds and rain came,

She protected me enuf-

But not too much cos she knew,

I’d need to stand up strong n tough.

 

Her costant good example

Alwiz taught me right from wrong-

Markers 4 my pathway

Dat will last a lifetime long.

 

I am Okaasan’s garden.

I am her legacy,

And I hope everyday she feels da love

Reflected back from me!

eheh..Happy now dat i'm home 4 awhile~

Without you~

 

I keep looking in all the places,

Where u are supposed to be.

But I never seem to find you,

And u’re all I long to see.

 

I just can’t seem to understand,

What it was that changed ur mind,

All this time I thought I knew u,

When really, I was blind.

 

But knowing that I do not hate u,

And I noe I never will.

Because I cared about you then,

And I care about u still.

 

Even though you hurt me,

I can’t seem to let u go.

But I will go on without u,

And I want to make sure u noe.

 

It will take sum tyme to mend,

The damage that u’ve done.

But broken hearts do heal,

Dat’s where strength comes from.

 

For now, the tears may be falling,

And my thoughts keep circling to u.

But soon, things will get better,

If u have hope, then they alwiz do.

 

Injury..

When an emotional injury takes place,

The body begins a process

As natural as the healing

Of a physical wound.

Let the process happen.

Trust that nature

Will do the healing.

Know that the pain will pass,

And, when it passes,

You will be stronger,

Happier, more sensitive and aware.

- Being injured is totally a worthwhile experienced.

// It's ok to be injured sumtimes when u noe how to counter it back.

// *Just being optimistic..=p*..